I haven't fully grieved over last month's breakup and instead i get these momentary breakdowns on random nights. I don't know how to stop this. How do you stop feelings

Beat me

Beat me.

This is something that my anxiety would say to me. TBH, this tag game with anxiety is getting too tiring. One day, it just pops out of nowhere saying "tag, you're it," and surprise, surprise, anxiety caught me. Haha. It won't let me live until i beat it. BUT IT KEEPS ON COMING BACK. It keeps on coming back.

My life is changing and maybe I'm just in denial that such is happening. I'm too afraid of changes. Fuck it, I'm weak. Maybe this is why my buddy here keeps on coming back, wanting to play. I hope you get tired of it because I am. 

(Un)Lost

I thought that if I would make it, I'd be fine. Sure, I'm ecstatic as fuck. Heck, I've been dreaming of this moment for so long. Then why

Why do I still feel empty

Why do I still feel lost

What to do

Where to go

From  h e r e

Some days

Some days, I feel good as fuck.

Some days, I just want to cry my eyes out.

Some days, I just don't give a shit.