Thursday 6 October 2016

I haven't fully grieved over last month's breakup and instead i get these momentary breakdowns on random nights. I don't know how to stop this. How do you stop feelings

Thursday 16 June 2016

Beat me

Beat me.

This is something that my anxiety would say to me. TBH, this tag game with anxiety is getting too tiring. One day, it just pops out of nowhere saying "tag, you're it," and surprise, surprise, anxiety caught me. Haha. It won't let me live until i beat it. BUT IT KEEPS ON COMING BACK. It keeps on coming back.

My life is changing and maybe I'm just in denial that such is happening. I'm too afraid of changes. Fuck it, I'm weak. Maybe this is why my buddy here keeps on coming back, wanting to play. I hope you get tired of it because I am. 

Thursday 26 May 2016

(Un)Lost

I thought that if I would make it, I'd be fine. Sure, I'm ecstatic as fuck. Heck, I've been dreaming of this moment for so long. Then why

Why do I still feel empty
Why do I still feel lost
What to do
Where to go

From  h e r e

Wednesday 6 January 2016

Some days

Some days, I feel good as fuck.
Some days, I just want to cry my eyes out.
Some days, I just don't give a shit.

Wednesday 16 December 2015

Drag me down

Depression actually takes something from you and you can never take it back no matter how hard you try.

In my case, I kinda lost some of my friends and my ability to talk to them like we used to. This depression created a gap in our relationship that I've been trying to fill but I can't. No one knows because no one will understand. It's not an underestimation, but it's a way of keeping myself safe. This sad life I'm leading, I hope it doesn't last long.