here’s to my friends in the past who aren’t quite my friends now

where are you? im standing up and say that i do miss you. i do want to catch up with you. and im just too shy to let you know this. im afraid it would be awkward now, knowing that years passed since we last talked. im afraid that you don’t care about me anymore. oh wait, after not contacting me for years, yeah, you prolly don’t care. i think i did try to reach out to you. but you were either busy or you just shook me off. it’s just so sad that the friendship we had is going to waste. you’ve moved on with your life, i’ve moved on with mine. i guess we’re two separate worlds now. i was just a chapter in your life. i do hope that was a fun and beautiful chapter, because it is in mine. so here’s to the memories we made and the friendship we had that would eventually end some time soon.

just saying

Whenever I feel so depressed and feel like cutting, I just listen to Hold On Till May by Pierce the Veil, 'cause it's basically Vic Fuentes (and of course the whole band) telling me not to do it. Yep, it helps. :)

fuck everything. that's why.

that feeling that you just don't belong
that you don't really want to be here 
that you're just tiring yourself out for things that would eventually fail you
that you think you need to be somewhere else
reaching out, chasing what you really love


things get you down, break you into a million pieces
but life goes on
someday, somehow, you'll need to get those pieces back
put it together and things would get better.
it will. it should.