it's not the way you plan it, it's how you make it happen

Too many plans, too many dreams. I can't seem to make them happen. It's frustrating. I've laid out my plans, yet i don't have the guts to materialize them. I want to do this, I want to do that, I want to do him (okay, kidding) but it's all just a bouquet of words -- words without actions. I am always left with this hard decision of whether I follow my dreams or I stick to the conventional. I always think of the pros and cons of my actions -- would it benefit me, or disfavor me? I would think, what would my parents' or friends' reaction be if I do this or stop doing this? What if everything would fail and I would be left with nothing? It's always a matter of thinking. Maybe I do tend to overthink every detail, and that's what sets me back from following my dreams and plans. Maybe it's this fear that I am nurturing inside me that hinders me from doing everything. It's this fear of trying and then failing that separates me and my dreams. Perhaps, it's time to let this fear go, stop overthinking, and just do what I want to? Yes, these are words again. Words I'm afraid I could not live by. I should just take these baby steps, do one thing at a time, until I reach my dreams. One day, I'm gonna make this happen.