overthinking

it just dawned on me that this will (hopefully) be my last year in college. and several questions sprung out of my beautiful mind. 

"am i ready for this?"

"have i really experienced everything i needed to experience during college?"

"will everything be worth it?" 

"did i miss anything?"

"have i done everything from my imaginary bucket list?" (the answer to this question is, i think, no.)

"will i really graduate?"

"why am i still a lazy ass?"

"did i learn everything i need to learn from my degree?"

"will everything i learned be sufficient to land me a decent job after graduation and passing the board?"

"will i pass the board exams?"

""what happens next?"

"can i face reality?"


i know, i'm overthinking and getting anxious, yet again. but it's the reality that i have to face every single day. every day that passes by, means a step closer to graduation. and i honestly felt like everything i have learned for the past 4 years  up to the present is not enough to prepare me for the rest of my life. yes, i'm just overthinking because fuck studying and upcoming exams.