you

I caught this sadness like a cold
How do you end this
I need my medicine
But you're my medicine
Yet you are also the cold
Will i ever be cured by this sickness called
"y o u"

was it worth it

it's sad how you unintentionally hurt people

but i never meant to hurt you

i did not choose to hurt you

i never wanted to hurt you

but it can't be helped

there's nothing i can do to not hurt you

is it worth it

is it worth hurting you

is the pain worth it

am i worth the pain

the pain, the hurt

that you had no plan of getting rid of

am i worth it

i don't think so

i am not worth the pain

never

late night conversations
2am gentle breeze
caresses your skins

soft laughs
glowing eyes
low murmurs
and meaningful stares

why can't this be us

this could have been us

but it's not.

and it will never be.
i'm not her.
and i will never be.

rage shit bc of you

you built a fence around yourself and started to burn every single bridge, now tell me, how am i supposed to reach out to you?
it feels like we're not worthy of each others' time anymore and probably it's better off that way. if you don't care, then i don't care. i'm sick of pretending that everything's fine between us. the plain thought of you makes me want to vomit. what you do behind my back makes me vomit. now, go ahead and throw every memory. it's practically useless now, is it? how long can you hide behind those goody-goody shoes? it's pathetic. i think it's time for me to turn around now and head over the other direction. i'm sick of walking beside you. or behind you. i'm sick of tagging along, trying still to fit in your world. i'm not meant for this shit. if this is what you call a "friend", then i'd rather not have one like you.

ERADICATION.

i really wish our story was written in pencil so i could easily erase off all of you. 

god, you hypocrites. i'm sick of your crap and i don't have time for your petty shits. you call yourselves "friends", ha, what a joke.