Bazooka Rocks 2 Fan Party and M&G

It's been almost a month since I met my favorite bands and of course, Bazooka Rocks 2, and I still have PCD, obviously. I'm finding it hard to get over it. I may probably never get over it, or it would take a loooong time. 

Anyway, let's start with the 24th of August. Meet and greet with A Rocket to the Moon, Tonight Alive, and All Time Low (missed WCAR because too hungry :c). Damn, that was *insert words to explain this extreme happiness*. It's been a month yet I still remember everything that happened clearly. Me and my friend fucking won MOA's contest for the meet and greet with TA, WCAR, ARTTM and ATL a day before. Of course, we're ecstatic. My friend and I arrived at MOA at around 12:30 and my boyfriend was already waiting for us there. We had a quick lunch at Jollibee while waiting for the M&G to start :) 

After waiting for some time, we got inside the venue (well, where the stage is set), and after a few more minutes and Tonight Alive was in the house. Whakaio and Jenna performed an acoustic set made up of 3 songs -- Listening, Safe and Sound, and The Ocean. Jenna sounds like an angel and Whak is definitely a great guitar player! After their little set, Tonight Alive's M&G began. My boyfriend (who got his pass from my friend) and I were so stoked since we both love Tonight Alive! When I was up the stage, I hugged and said hello first to Matt then to Jake. When I got to Jenna, I was so stunned by her beauty and I almost got speechless but good thing I said a few words and hugged her. The photographer took a photo of us and then I hugged Cam and Whak at the same time. They were all nice people and I fucking loved their accent when they said hello and a few other words to me :)

M&G with Tonight Alive :D

We missed RJA's signing and the We Came As Romans M&G and it was because a little of I kinda got bored while waiting in line and more of I was so hungry by then (I know, I suck). That was around 5 in the afternoon. Next up was A Rocket To The Moon M&G. Since this will be the last time ARTTM would be playing here as a whole band, this one's really special. The crowd surprised them by singing Baby Blue Eyes as they entered the area, and Nick, Halvo, Andrew and Justin definitely enjoyed it. While waiting in line, I got an idea to make Nick hold a fansign for my friends who are such a big fan of ARTTM. And because of panicking and partly too excited because ATL's M&G was next, I dropped my phone HAHA. Good thing a kind soul picked it up and gave it to the bouncers, and the bouncers were so nice and helpful when I lost my phone and I surely got it back afterwards. Anyway, when I came up on stage, I was panicking again and the funny thing is, I have spoken in English quite well, because I asked Nick to hold this thing up for me while the photographer took the photo. I only said a quick hello to the other guys due to limited time. It was definitely a pleasure to have a picture with ARTTM.

M&G with ARTTM :D

All Time Low's M&G was up next. And oh dear God, everything prior to me meeting ATL was a blur HAHAHA. We were kind of at the back of the line, and the next thing I remember, I was hugging Jack Barakat. I. FUCKING. HUGGED. JACK. BARAKAT. God, he's kinda thin, and VERY ADORABLE. Haha. I gave him my little gift and he said thanks and I said that I love him. HAHA and guess what, he loves me back!!! lqioweq8sdflksew5 I gave him some stupid smile (or laugh) and moved on to giving Zack a letter from my friend and hugging him. God, those muscles. Then, I went to Alex and hugged him and then I gave him a letter from another friend and holy shit, he smiled and said thanks (in a very cute way). The photographer then took a shot of us. And I got to Rian (who was drinking beer) and I said hi and hugged him and he's just so cute. I was absolutely happy during this M&G, that you can see it on my face. I was literally ":D" at that time.

All Time Low M&G :D
Alex was not looking at the camera,
he kinda looks like a lost boy ;p

After a tiring day, my friend and I left MOA feeling extremely happy and a bit tired with the M&G. My dreams did come true and I wish it could always be like this. :) Thank you, SM Mall of Asia and Pulp Live World for making this happen! :)

(TL;DR. I'm overly happy that I met my favorite bands.)

new blog title

my new blog title is from Tonight Alive's song, Wasting Away. love that song. and it just, idk, it fits me at the moment ;D



EDIT: obviously i've changed my blog title as of now (march 2014)

Two days

I am two days away from meeting my heroes. No, they don't fly but they do sing and they save people's lives all the same. After all the frustrations and panic and sweat for three months, here I am, (not quite) ready to meet the people behind the music that has been with me in the lowest points of my life. As cliche as it may sound, music is my escape -- escape from school, from pressure, from problems, from the world, from this harsh reality. Their songs tell me that everything will be okay, and they speak to me in a way that no one else can. They've been with me when none of my friends ever did. Their music kept me sane. And it's just that, it feels like there is a special connection between me and their songs. I am so excited to meet them and thank them for their music. I feel like they have been my friends even if I haven't seen them personally yet. I know, I sound like a typical fangirl, but hey, what I am really saying is true and that is what I really feel. So yeah, BRF weekend, I'm coming :---)

it's not the way you plan it, it's how you make it happen

Too many plans, too many dreams. I can't seem to make them happen. It's frustrating. I've laid out my plans, yet i don't have the guts to materialize them. I want to do this, I want to do that, I want to do him (okay, kidding) but it's all just a bouquet of words -- words without actions. I am always left with this hard decision of whether I follow my dreams or I stick to the conventional. I always think of the pros and cons of my actions -- would it benefit me, or disfavor me? I would think, what would my parents' or friends' reaction be if I do this or stop doing this? What if everything would fail and I would be left with nothing? It's always a matter of thinking. Maybe I do tend to overthink every detail, and that's what sets me back from following my dreams and plans. Maybe it's this fear that I am nurturing inside me that hinders me from doing everything. It's this fear of trying and then failing that separates me and my dreams. Perhaps, it's time to let this fear go, stop overthinking, and just do what I want to? Yes, these are words again. Words I'm afraid I could not live by. I should just take these baby steps, do one thing at a time, until I reach my dreams. One day, I'm gonna make this happen. 

giving up

why is giving up the only option i have when things don't go right? maybe i've never been strong at all. it was all just an illusion; lies that i tell myself to make me feel better. life puts me through a lot of bullshit and i just can't handle it all. i hate feeling so helpless and hopeless. i don't know how to pick myself up. giving up would be easier -- saves me all the trouble of getting up and going through the same shits all over again. i don't know. i'm still stuck in the middle. i will always be here, thinking of moving up or going down, left or right. nothing could save me right now.