Looking back

When I started this blog almost three years ago as an outlet for all of my negative emotions, I never thought I would have gotten better and would have gotten this far. But here I am, and I've had a lot of accomplishments since then. Sure, I do get the occasional mood swings and relapses but I get through them. I learned how to handle the things that make me sad -- from school to friends to random, nonsense stuff. I learned how to not get the simplest of things get to me. I learned to control my emotions. I surrounded myself with good people and burned bridges for the bad ones. Yes, I still make mistakes, some of them I am really not proud of. But mistakes are mistakes, I just need to make them right. The bottomline is I learned to not give a fuck and make a big fuss about every single negative thing. I've grown a lot emotionally and I hope to God this would be, indeed, for the better. 

you

I caught this sadness like a cold
How do you end this
I need my medicine
But you're my medicine
Yet you are also the cold
Will i ever be cured by this sickness called
"y o u"

was it worth it

it's sad how you unintentionally hurt people

but i never meant to hurt you

i did not choose to hurt you

i never wanted to hurt you

but it can't be helped

there's nothing i can do to not hurt you

is it worth it

is it worth hurting you

is the pain worth it

am i worth the pain

the pain, the hurt

that you had no plan of getting rid of

am i worth it

i don't think so

i am not worth the pain

Hi. I'm that sad little bitch with take-out and alcohol. And I can't change this fucking font to Verdana.

I'm so tired of telling myself that I am strong when I know, deep down, that I'm not.