SOS

Help yourself.

No one can help you better than yourself.

Stand firmly on the ground and help yourself up.

You can't break down if you know how to stand up.

Surround yourself with good people.

Dispose the bad ones.

Learn from them.

Words won't kill you.

Running away will.

And giving up won't be an option.

Pain will always be temporary.

Better days will come.

Life is a battle.

You just have to find out how to win.

And no one can help you win but yourself.

choices

I am writing this in the middle of the week, and in the middle of the day because A) I am very confused, and B) I am pissed off. Let's start with reason A.
I am very confused 'cause there are so many options that I am having a hard time choosing one. There are too many paths ahead of me and I cannot choose which one to take. Let's see... here are the options:
1. Church.
2. Join org A.
3. Join org B.
4. Music. ♥
5. Paka-adik sa acads.
6. As is. (flirting, sitting around -- which are kind of getting boring)
I'm guessing I need to choose at least one among the first four 'cause my depression isn't getting any better. I need distractions. I feel like if I don't do something before the year ends, I might as well go. LOL. Kidding. This freakin' depression is almost headed towards that. I need to be saved. But anyway, that isn't the point of this post. I just want to do something worthwhile, yung tipong worth it naman ang pag-eexist ko. IDK. I'm just confused that I do not know what I am saying.
Next off, I am pissed off. People are leaving me behind. People do NOT leave me behind. I should be the one leaving them. :P But yeah, it IS happening. And it is pissing me off. So much. Truth is, I hate solitude. It brings up the depression. Depression easily eats me up whenever I am alone. So yeah, as of now, my solution is just flirting and watching some series. But we all know that would not last long. I need some kind of a long term solution. This is how this reason is related to the first one.  
Screw everybody. 
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I am currently in music therapy. Yeah, I'm playing those loud rock songs. They deal with all the frustration and anger and whatever you call these feelings I feel right now.