if you're james dean, i'm audrey hepburn

as long as you're here with me, i know i'll be okay 

life's been hard on me for the past few months. it goes up, it goes down; sometimes, one lasts longer than the other. but the pleasant thought of you, never giving up on me, is what keeps me going c: you never gave up on me when i almost gave up on myself. i'll never forget that day, my dear c: whenever i feel down, just the thought of you is enough to make me feel okay. i love you, dear, and i can't wait to spend forever with you because then, i would feel alright every single day c: they say that love is forever, your forever is all that i need <3

fitting in

why do we need to fit in?
why do we feel like we need to belong to something?
i believe we can do fine on our own, but perhaps it's the jealousy that we feel when we see other people in groups that makes you realize of your loneliness.
thus, that created the sense of belongingness. we don't feel our existence is justified until we belong to a certain group.
but if we just can't fit in into this group, it's not enough reason to be sad and engage into self-pity because a person can be awesome on their own. you can do great things without other people's help. you are valuable. you are important.
screw whoever said that we should belong to something in order to feel good about ourselves, because at the end of the day, it's just ourselves whom we trust and depend our happiness, and not anybody else.

here’s to my friends in the past who aren’t quite my friends now

where are you? im standing up and say that i do miss you. i do want to catch up with you. and im just too shy to let you know this. im afraid it would be awkward now, knowing that years passed since we last talked. im afraid that you don’t care about me anymore. oh wait, after not contacting me for years, yeah, you prolly don’t care. i think i did try to reach out to you. but you were either busy or you just shook me off. it’s just so sad that the friendship we had is going to waste. you’ve moved on with your life, i’ve moved on with mine. i guess we’re two separate worlds now. i was just a chapter in your life. i do hope that was a fun and beautiful chapter, because it is in mine. so here’s to the memories we made and the friendship we had that would eventually end some time soon.

just saying

Whenever I feel so depressed and feel like cutting, I just listen to Hold On Till May by Pierce the Veil, 'cause it's basically Vic Fuentes (and of course the whole band) telling me not to do it. Yep, it helps. :)

fuck everything. that's why.

that feeling that you just don't belong
that you don't really want to be here 
that you're just tiring yourself out for things that would eventually fail you
that you think you need to be somewhere else
reaching out, chasing what you really love


things get you down, break you into a million pieces
but life goes on
someday, somehow, you'll need to get those pieces back
put it together and things would get better.
it will. it should.