Monday 30 December 2013

memorable moments this 2013 :D

Just like last year, I'm going to list down my 10 most memorable moments for this year. I'd say this year was awesome, probably better than last year. I've been good and bad, happy and sad, but in the end, all the experience was worth it :D


10. April 8, 2013 
     This day was the roller coaster of the year. Haha. I remember clearly how my day started so bad because of my problem, and I still had a final exam later in the morning. I can't really say what exactly happened, but it was hell. I hope I won't go through that again next year.
      Later that day (some time in the afternoon), my soon-to-be boyfriend in a few minutes visited me, and he made everything better by asking me to be his girlfriend. I've liked him for some time then, so it was quite easy to say yes. :) He had a few presents for me, including a chocolate so melted because of the summer heat. Haha. I appreciated his presents a lot. And all my anxiety during the morning was gone. :)

9. Christmas eve
     It was the first time we spent Christmas eve away from home. We went to our relative's home and we get to spend it there together. There was a photo booth and a lot of pictures were taken, and my cousins and I enjoyed it so much. Haha. There were lots of drinks and foods and stories as well. It was actually nice to spend Christmas eve this way. :)

8. Acads
     This had it's ups and downs, but, during the latter part of the year, this was the better part. Don't get me wrong, I love learning new stuff and I'm not all that high and mighty when it comes to academics, but finally feeling industrious again this second semester feels good. Maybe because I'm learning all new stuff from my major, and it's interesting. :)
     Also, the last part of the first semester was quite fun despite all those loads of schoolwork and projects. It was awesome brainstorming and getting to work with my brilliant classmates/groupmates. The downside is I really missed proper sleep. A LOT. :---)

7. Opening up to more music
     Because of my bf and twitter friends, I got the chance to listen to a lot of new and cool stuff from different bands and artists. I can't find any other words to say about this but I'm definitely glad that my iTunes contains over a thousand songs.

6. Hangout with HS friends last sembreak
     Well, at least we get to meet at least once every year. There were almost 20 of us who gathered and just enjoyed each other's company. It was a very fun hang out. We ate at Shakey's, strolled inside the mall then played at Quantum. Of course, we exchanged a lot of stories since we need a lot of catching up to do. :)

5. Meeting BForce and other fangirl friends (haha)
     Well honestly, I love BForce to bits and they just make me so happy. Haha. We all have something in common (hey, Mr. Jack Barakat) plus everyone's got their own sense of humor. Ily gurls.
     And to everyone else who helped me get to where I am... (what!?)
     And for every fangirl/boy I have met over the internet, damn, they're awesome. Stay awesome and hope I to see some of them on other concerts :)
     This also goes out to my elbi fangirl friends. You know who you are :--)

4. When Jack Barakat replied to my tweet
     Oh come on, who wouldn't be overly delighted to have Jack reply a full sentence to you?? Sorry but I'm just so happy okay. It's okay for a girl to be happy about this kind of things. ;D
See Jack's tweet here :D :D :D

3. Paramore concert (February 15, 2013)
     I missed them last 2010, but not this time. :D Hearing one of my all time favorite band live was really an amazing moment. Hayley's voice is just so perfect, the whole band is perfect, not to mention I'm surrounded by tens of thousands of people loving the same music as I do. 
And nope. I will not get a Gen Ad seat again because fuck vertigo.

2. Bazooka Rocks weekend (August 24-25,2013)
     BEST. WEEKEND. EVER. Met and hugged my fave bands especially Tonight Alive and All Time Low. I freakin' hugged them!!!! *fangirl moment* And of course, that wouldn't be possible without those hundreds of people whom I bothered and nagged to vote for my entry on MOA's contest for that M&G. To all of those people, I send you all my love and my deepest gratitude :-)
     Of course, the concert itself was rad!!!! 14 hours of awesome live music from more than 10 different bands, being surrounded by people who have the same passion and love for music as I do, and seeing my fave bands next to the person I love is beyond perfect. Plus, booze and foods and random booths is more than I could ask for. It was the best 3k something I've ever spent, and it was definitely well-spent!

1. P :-)
     We started the year together (well, we still weren't together at the start of the year but you get the idea) and I'm glad we're ending it together, as well. I honestly don't know what I'd be, or where I'd be if he wouldn't be in my life right now. He's the best thing that ever happened to me this year. He's my Jack Barakat, my best friend, my concert buddy, my pillow and the love of my life. I don't wanna get cheesy anymore so I'll just say that I really love him. :-)
Well, that's one to cross off this list :-)


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I really want to thank God for giving me such a great year, a lot of experiences and a good boyfriend. I wanna thank my family and all my friends, because heck, my 2013 would be incomplete without you. I also wanna thank bands for existing and creating music. I wanna thank whoever created twitter because I made quite some friends over twitter, ya know. Well, going back to the topic, I know every good and bad thing that I encountered this year only adds up to my list of awesome experience. :-)

Thursday 26 December 2013

Unmaterialized

I have a lot of thoughts that I could not put into words.
I feel like this makes me less intelligent.
And is actually frustrating.

Monday 23 December 2013

Merry Christmas, Kiss My Ass (that's been on the bed for a week)

Why am I not feeling so Christmasy? I don't know -- maybe it's because I've spent a week sitting my butt off, browsing through some random pages on the internet, listening to different bands, and fangirling over their stuff. I know, I should feel the holiday spirit, but nope, the spirit does not dwell within me. Maybe it's also due to my environment that does not really look like the holidays, or I just really enjoy wasting my time. I could've been productive, but I chose not to. Oh wait, I've done a little cooking last week but that was it. I could literally hear my bed screaming, "GET YOUR FUCKING ASS OUT". But hey, I guess I have a one-sided relationship with my bed now. And yep, this is a totally unrelated blabbering about the holidays. 

Merry Christmas, anyway. Hope you're enjoying the holidays! ;-)



PS. Full Frontal tomorrow, bitchez. (around 7am, Dec 24. Philippine time)

Saturday 21 December 2013

SOS

Help yourself.
No one can help you better than yourself.
Stand firmly on the ground and help yourself up.
You can't break down if you know how to stand up.
Surround yourself with good people.
Dispose the bad ones.
Learn from them.
Words won't kill you.
Running away will.
And giving up won't be an option.
Pain will always be temporary.
Better days will come.
Life is a battle.
You just have to find out how to win.
And no one can help you win but yourself.

Thursday 19 December 2013

sooo...

religion is not something you shove down on other people's throats. it should come naturally, when the heart is ready. 

on second thought, religion is not actually important. your relationship with God is.

Thursday 12 December 2013

12/9/13

i hate being alone
i hate being left alone with my thoughts
i hate that im crying myself to sleep at night
i hate that i keep the light turned on at night
i hate how my body tenses up when i feel alone
i hate when those bad memories haunt me when im alone
i hate how i become so weak
i hate how fear has taken over me
i hate that i could not save myself
i hate that nothing could save me right now
i hate how i get paranoid about the smallest things
i hate every negative emotion that i have
i hate that im crying right now
i hate that i dont see any living thing within the corners of my room
i hate that i have no one to talk to right now
i hate how i fear that my friends dont want to talk to me
i hate that i think about those things
i hate that i feel so alone
i hate these feelings
i hate myself
i hate

Thursday 5 December 2013

never was

wasting moments, wishes and dreams
that never came true.
it was a never was,
a never have been,
a never in a thousand lifetimes.
what a shame,
we could have rainbows
and happiness.
but we choose to ignore
every chance
we could have taken.