stop being so full of yourself

allow me to go straight to the point...

THE WORLD DOES NOT REVOLVE AROUND YOU.

actually, it revolves around the sun.

well, maybe your world revolves around you. but please, stop implying that my world should revolve around yours, too (or other people's for that matter). 

stop telling the world about every single thing you do. we don't need that much information. stop hinting that you are better than most of us. wake up, kid, we all know you're not. stop bragging about riches you have right now (oh, technically, they aren't yours btw). one day, you just might lose it all. stay quiet. lower your pride. don't think too highly of yourself. be sensitive.

and please, stop being so full of yourself.

Frozen

With regards to my blog title, I may or may not be talking about the weather. But hey, let me talk about it anyway. For the past two weeks, it has been fucking cold -- a lot colder than the usual January weather. Every morning, it feels like waking up in Baguio. It's good, because I don't need to use the electric fan anymore, thus saving up some electricity. However, it is bad, because it's  t o r t u r e  to take a bath every morning and it's making me less productive. Pretty cool weather, though. It's kind of fun to have three layers of clothing every night.


Now I'm really here to talk about the Disney movie, Frozen. I've seen the trailer of this movie last November and from the trailer, I felt that this would be awesome because I thought i was not the usual plot (love stories and princesses shit). I have just seen it last night (I know, I suck, sorry) because I've been pretty busy these past few weeks. And holy shit, that movie was rad!!! Well, sure, there was still a love story and princesses in the movie but the actual story does not revolve around it. The film was well-created and the animation was fucking amazing. Plus, all those singing parts by the characters made the movie alive. For me, the best one was where Elsa (voiced by Idina Menzel) sang Let It Go and exhibited her ice powers and it was breathtaking. Damn, I regret not watching this movie earlier in the theater. If you haven't watched Frozen yet, I'm telling you, you should.

temporary bliss

These past few weeks (after the January 6 incident), I've been busy elated. :-) Sure, the anxiety and stress will always be there, but these things are under control now. I still get frustrated at times but I try to battle them out. I won't get anywhere with freaking out at every little thing so I try my hardest to not do this. I distract myself to avoid getting anxious and hey, I guess it's a mind over matter kind of thing, I could actually do it. In fact, this January was a whole lot better than last year. :-)

Acads-wise, I don't know. It's a mixture of a little bit fucked up and okay. Hope this semester will bring good news in the end, though :-) 

Moreover, today (January 25th) marks the 5th month since the Bazooka Rocks Festival. Feels all over again. Haha. 

I just had the free time to write a post this week because I have no upcoming exams the next week :)

what even

whatever fucking happened to january 6. i do not know. i just wanna be happy. 

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sometimes, you have to admit to yourself that you are not okay; that you are not happy. the next thing to do now is, find what the problem is.

i'm sick of pretending that everything's all right. i know it isn't. something isn't. and what frustrates me is that i don't know what that is. maybe i do know deep inside, i just don't want myself to know what that is. i know, it's confusing, and i hate it. i hate how i feel every negative emotion every time i'm alone. i hate how i breakdown when no one is around. i hate how this table i'm using turns into a pool of tears. i'm honestly sick of feeling this way. i have no idea what to do, or where to go from here. i want to convince myself that i am happy, but these tears at the end of the day tell me that i'm not.