9th of december

this is probably the first 9th of december that i am actually not depressed. those regrets and sadness failed to enter my thoughts and i am glad about it. for the last two years since the break-up, this is usually a gloomy day for me. i just find myself moping around, revisiting memories and bringing up those regrets. i cannot fully say that i am over him. one cannot unlove a person completely. as for me, there will always be a part of me that would care for him. but for now, i do not feel miserable about what could have been or the "what ifs" that could have happened. 

i guess acceptance is truly the key to let go of the misery that lives inside me. what he said to me a few weeks ago might have helped me realize this. and i also believe in God's perfect timing. i do not lose hope in the thought that someday, we could still be together. the past may not be the perfect time for us, yet the future may be. and if we really are meant for each other, we just have to trust God and let love find it's way back. understanding this made me think clearer and perhaps, shape me into becoming a better person. :)

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ps. i like typing in small caps. haha. it looks cute. maybe i should do this more often.